This few day's i dreamed alot of wired thing's happening in this world and my love's one's around me... :) I dont know what happen and what's happening to me as well... :(.... Im worried and scared as well..... :)!!!!!!

I'm still look'in forward in what im wanting to do and waiting to do as well.. :)..... I dont care what ever ppl talk about me, but im still working and putting all my efford on what im loving to do now.....................

Ppl think im Childish or not mature i dont care.. I know what im doing and look'in for...............................................................................:)

1) Im still waiting and looking for a good job that what i want to do? I love to do marketing but NOT SITTING IN THE OFFICE.....

THE MOST I WISH I CAN MAKE MY DREAM COME TRUE AND WHAT IM WAITING FOR SO LONG....

2) Hope that you Lord, will answer my prayer's and need's lord.

3) Lord, continue to look after all of your children's in whatever they need's lord..... Heal your children's in CHRIST................

4) I hope that i'll get support,encouragment, love & etc from my mother, good friend's, future student's, friend's, close friend's, best friend's and other's as well..... In whatever im doing and wanting to do... Thanks lord.......

5) May god be with each of everyone of us now and always lord... AMEN....... TQ.... :)



******* Im updating my blog at home, Monday, 10AM
******* Love Paulin




Ok lets start, What A friend we have in jesus, where the trouble everywhere, we do not need to carry, what a friend we have in jesus.... SOrry i cant remember all the lyrics.........

Thanks for being my Father in heaven lord, you are always there for me no matter what i need and where im lord...... Thanks lord..................................

God is good all the time, all the time god is good.... Thanks lord......... We love you lord................


** I want to thanks for all my love's one's who being with me since the day 1 till now, i do very thankful to have you all as my good friend, best friend, friend, girlfriend's, parent's, church familie's, my familie's and etc.....

** You're always so great to me, always supporting me, encouraging me, and etc ........... I'll not forget all of you.......... That you all take my rubbish....... of me.. So sorry..... :P.....

** I dont know how to say and thanks you all..... :P Thanks for understanding me..... Love you all babe's.... :P


My Love.... Paulin




I noticed & noted that God always hear, lead's, guide, & etc with a different way's, god always and sometime's hear my prayer's and putting or showing me within my good friend's, best friend's, love'e one's, and etc, he always show me and lead's me by showing and sending me an angel's always the close one's that i know's... He's always lead me and hear my and guiding me.. Thanks lord, i'll always keep that and be in faith in u... :P thanks lord again... Im glad, pls do countinue to be with each one's of us all the time lord...

*** I want to pray for My Sister, u know who right, please do be with her, give's her love's, healing and touch be upon her & her's familie's as well, be with them and her as well, now and always lord..
*** Be with each of everyone's of your children's lord, heal us and guide us all the time now and always lord, give's us healing touche's...... Thanks lord.

*** DO countinue to be with me, lord, hear me and guide me, and keeping on doing the same way lord.. What i want to do lord. ...... Be with me and my familie's as well 2 lord and love's one's around me all the time lord.. Thanks, Amen...


***** Im updating my blog at home, SUnday, 1030PM
***** Love's




Hmmmm....... Today is Saturday already, wow time fly so quick..... :)
Today in the afternoon my good friend is doing Fashion Show................. :P All of us are they to support our friend.......

*** Im still thinking thinking thinking thinking thinking thinking, what shall i do now? I taught i want reaccept the request that my friend ask me to do... :)....
But i dont know how to discuss with my mum, im sure she will not agree with me...:P
I dont know how to do now? Im so stress and confuse.... :)

*** I always worried, sad, stress and etc, i dont know what to do now? I got alot of thing's to worried and thinking offffff........ :(....
- The thing's that i want to do is Becoming Pro Dancer & Instructor, i want to get some experience's on the stage and able to teach ....... :P
- Now im polishing up all my steps and skills..... :)

*** Oh Lord, May countinue to guide me, lead me, help me and etc lord..... I need your help oh lord...

**** Im updating my blog at home, Saturday, 910AM
**** Love Paulin




Oh No, I heard a Bad New's & Sudden new's that Michael Jackson has passed away yday ...... So sad.... How come he so famous and he died so sudden of heart attack or Drugs..... :P Poor thing.... I missed my Idol.... MJ's is my fav dancer & singer as well, when i hear his song's i feel so sad and touche's by his word's.... :(....

Now he's gone with god.. SO saddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd :(......

Everyone issue today, is MJ's Dead....... :( How can he gone just like that... So famous in the whole wide world..............

*** Im so sad about, Why i cant do what i want to become? I want to take this oppurinty to perform in public with my friend and now, i cannot even take and do what i wanted to do... :P Hai yah.. :(... How lord..... I need your help...

Pls lord.... DO not take anyone that i love, and help me toooo... TQ


***** Im updating my blog at home, 26/6, 1050PM
***** Love Paulin




Lord, now im very confuse, sick, tired, disappointed, sad, unhappy, miserable & etc & and i dont know WHat Im waiting For and dont know what to do NEXT Lord.
People & someone asking me What Im Waiting for? You think you know what i want to do and why i waited so long for? U dont know what i had been thru in my life and hard dession to make up..... :( U think im very happy..... :(....... The Carreer i want to be and do Is Become Pro Dancer & Instructor...
Last Week God has send me an angel thats what i want to be, i accept the offer, but i told someone, doesnt agreee and supppppoooorrrttt me at all also.... :( I was so diassapointed and i dont know how to answer....... :( I was down that whole week b'coz of that..... I told someone about it, its doesnt agree with me and didt support me at all, i told one of my close friend about this matter, she agree and ask me to move on with what i wanted to do.. I was so happy that my friend's always encourage me........

Im so lucky and glad thats still got my good & close friend's to support me and enourage me to move on what i love and want to become in the future... :P

But I'll never give up on what im doing and want to be in the future.. Im stil waiting and work hard on my danc'in.. I'll never give up what i love to do and becoming......... This career, i will never give up and forget about it... :P I will take with me till i die... :P

Thanks for all your support darling's..... :P

But someone always dont agree's what i want to move on with? Thats what makes me very disappointed and sad to be with... :(.. But someone always care and worried for me... :P I know as well lah... :P But why why? Someone dont agree's what i do? Thats what make's me so worried and upset all the time...
Someone dont understand that Danc'in is not my hobby ok.. Its my Career that i want to move on with? Do you know about that? IF i told you about this you also dont support me as well....................... I dont know who able to understand me... :P Only GOd and friend's know's what im undergoing with?

God why why why?

God please help me to talk to someone about this matter? Thats make's me soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo unhappy.................


GOd help me.....

*****Lord Can you help me to solve and find a good job for me 2....
- I was worried, sad, disappointed till i didt get a good sleep and peace of mind....
I'm always worried and stress 4 myself and all my love's one's as well 2....

- Lord i know you are always there for each one of us right......
Then you think why i always go to myoga,b'coz i got my instructor's to lead me into pro way's of guiding me and keep up with my danc'in as well............. & my friend's as well who always make's me happy , care, loving, there for me, support and agree's with me no matter what and when im down...........
I need to improve my danc'in skill's so that i can move forward into Pro Way............... Thats what im waiting for....................................... Only you know's lord... Help me..........


***** Im back updating my blog, FRIday, 26/6, 1035AM
***** Love Paulin




Lord, now im very confuse, sick, tired, disappointed, sad, unhappy, miserable & etc & and i dont know WHat Im waiting For and dont know what to do NEXT Lord.
People & someone asking me What Im Waiting for? You think you know what i want to do and why i waited so long for? U dont know what i had been thru in my life and hard dession to make up..... :( U think im very happy..... :(....... The Carreer i want to be and do Is Become Pro Dancer & Instructor...
Last Week God has send me an angel thats what i want to be, i accept the offer, but i told someone, doesnt agreee and supppppoooorrrttt me at all also.... :( I was so diassapointed and i dont know how to answer....... :( I was down that whole week b'coz of that..... I told someone about it, its doesnt agree with me and didt support me at all, i told one of my close friend about this matter, she agree and ask me to move on with what i wanted to do.. I was so happy that my friend's always encourage me........

Im so lucky and glad thats still got my good & close friend's to support me and enourage me to move on what i love and want to become in the future... :P

But I'll never give up on what im doing and want to be in the future.. Im stil waiting and work hard on my danc'in.. I'll never give up what i love to do and becoming......... This career, i will never give up and forget about it... :P I will take with me till i die... :P

Thanks for all your support darling's..... :P

But someone always dont agree's what i want to move on with? Thats what makes me very disappointed and sad to be with... :(.. But someone always care and worried for me... :P I know as well lah... :P But why why? Someone dont agree's what i do? Thats what make's me so worried and upset all the time...
Someone dont understand that Danc'in is not my hobby ok.. Its my Career that i want to move on with? Do you know about that? IF i told you about this you also dont support me as well....................... I dont know who able to understand me... :P Only GOd and friend's know's what im undergoing with?

God why why why?

God please help me to talk to someone about this matter? Thats make's me soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo unhappy.................


GOd help me.....

*****Lord Can you help me to solve and find a good job for me 2....
- I was worried, sad, disappointed till i didt get a good sleep and peace of mind....
I'm always worried and stress 4 myself and all my love's one's as well 2....

- Lord i know you are always there for each one of us right......
Then you think why i always go to myoga,b'coz i got my instructor's to lead me into pro way's of guiding me and keep up with my danc'in as well............. & my friend's as well who always make's me happy , care, loving, there for me, support and agree's with me no matter what and when im down...........
I need to improve my danc'in skill's so that i can move forward into Pro Way............... Thats what im waiting for....................................... Only you know's lord... Help me..........


***** Im back updating my blog, FRIday, 26/6, 1035AM
***** Love Paulin




Hai yah..... I was thinking whether want to go for Belly Dance with Elva today... But i want to go for class then after class, im going for makan with Dorris & Jax tooo.........

I was thinking that why i cannot do what i want to do? B'coz off my mother sick.... :P I miss my dancing alot..... :P I dont want to give up on my dancing..................... :P I'll work for it and 1 day i can do what i dream off doing and in the future as well.. I want to become Professional Dancer & Instructor as well... :P..... I wont give up on my dancing now or ever... I work for it......


Yes im going for my belly class later at 215 pm today... Yeah....

***** Im updating my blog, Wednesday, 24/6, 1030AM

***** Love Paulin




Hai today is tuesday already time fly's so quick.........
Today i went for 2 Latin's Classes with Ryu........



Hahahahahhaha... I dont know what else to say already...... :P



Today Darling & Me when makan at Canton I.....




***** Im updating my blog, 23/6, 850PM
***** Love Paulin




We celebrated Cay Mee's bday on saturday night, we had a great time of good friendship fellowship together...... We all had good time.. :P
Our pic's.......



That pic above is our yummmmmmmmmmyyyyyyy food and great fellowship 2........



Hahahahahha...



***** Im updating 22/6, Monday, 11AM
***** Love Paulin




I was very sad this few day's.. B'coz i hard desission to make up my mind? Whether i want to moved forward with my dancing life, my new career, or etc........

I was very emo!! :(....... Whenever i think of, i feel like crying and going somewhere far away from other's..... :(...

B'coz my friend told me something that i love to do, then i told my mother about it, she said NO, if u go ahead then u better go away from her... :(... Thats really hurts me alot....... And now i dont feel like going to church....... My hearts and mind said go to church to praise god... B'coz i dont want to go church b'coz i dont want to see someone.... :P Im very peace off and sad what she said to me...:(................... I never get a happy moment in my family life....

I go out is more happy for me, b'coz friend's and love's one's are always there to make me happy not SAd... Im sorry..... :P

My hearts and life's will never be replace again... :P Once im gone will never come back again.... :P

Now, i told my friend that its OVER ALREAY, I CANT JOIN HER......... :(..........
What a wasted? SO SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!

I'll never give up on my dancing career, when i earn alot of money.... :)..............


***** I'LL NEVER GIVE UP ON MY DANCING CARREER, NOW OR EVER... I'LL NEVER GIVE UP.. I'LLL STILL CONUTINUE WITH MY DANCING CAREER, NOW AND IN THE FUTURE AS WELL 2............



**** Im updating my blog at home, 21/6, Sunday, 920AM
**** Love Paulin.....




Hmmmm... Now im the garden's club updating my blog now...
I actually feel much better when im not at home, b'coz i dont feel very happy to be at home.. :(...

I feel very happy when im the club or somewhere chilling with my good friend's i feel much happier and release all my stress from home.. :)When im with my gang's of single's ladie's i will enjoy and forget all the sadness that i had :)

Thats why went i do what i love to do is acheving my goal's to become a PRO instructor & Dancer as well 2.... Now im working very hard about it.. :P So i need more time and free time to practice and go for more trainning and classe's 22222222222!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im very happy now.... :P

Because im free from my mother and home.. :P I dont want to go home so fast...... :P


***** Im updating my blog, 21/6, Sunday, 600OPM
***** Love Paulin




Hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo................ Life's hard to live do you know that? Life's is hard to live without money, house,families, friend's and etc more? It's hard to make decission as well.... :P

Nobody know's what had happen to me in the passed? Nobody know's about my life stories... Sometime's i feel like crying and going somewhere far away as welll... :P But 1 person ask me not to do that is GOD..... Thanks god... Thanks for ur loving, carrying and etc god.. Thanks God.. :P Love u lord...



****** Loves Paulin




U see god support me, friend's support me & Mother doesnt support me at all.. Thats very sad thing about it.. :P What a life, without love's one's supporting me.. :P Hai yah.. Where else i can go and do without mother love's... Mother who brought me up and now she telling's me these and that? What im going to do? That's make's my life's very sad and disappointed? Im very sad to hear these thing's happen from my own mother's mouth?

These is very personnal matter IS P&C ok.. DOnt tell anyone about it.. Plz Keep it toooo urself about this matter ok... :P


Im already very sad and upset about these matter already?


****** Love Paulin




Yday & today im very worried about what is ahead of me going to happen now? Its very hard to make a hard desission that i want to move on with my life?

What i love is my Dancing Carreer, thats I will never change and i will never give up what i want to do about it? Then yday my instructor@Friend ask me to join something with that person lah... :) I was happy about it, then i told my mother about it, she agree at 1st then suddenly she was worried about my future as well and the income.. I also worried about that as well, but for now, i dont have any job at the moment.. So i think god has send an angle to me, to ask me to work for it........ :) I think i know what is happening and god is helping about this as well.....
I think god is helping me and giving me this oppurinty that what i love to do... :P I think god is hearing me and helping me with this dance show... :P I think i know what is my answer already........ Life's hard to make a right decission as well... :(.................... OMG, IM VERY STRESS AND WORRIED ABOUT THIS MATTER?

My mum told me blar blar blar about these & that? That her's friend's told what is around me.......

I really hate and get into my nerves is ABOUT MY LIFE, FRIEND'S THAT I MIX AROUND AND TELLING ME TO DO THIS AND NOT THAT? WHAT?? I KNOW WHAT IM DOING AND GOING ON OK... DONT STOP ME WHAT IM DOING AND WHAT IS AROUND ME... I DONT LIKE PPL TO CHOOSE MY OWN FRIEND'S.. I KNOW WHO IM MIXING WITH....... :)....Its very make me peace offfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thats what i dont like about it... :P I hated ppl telling me these and that what and what i should do?


****** Im updating my blog, 20/6, Saturday, 1110AM
****** Love Paulin




Yday i was so happy, i was so shock to see Elva class in the afternoon was so pack and in the night also its was pack... Im so happy... I really enjoy zumba class alot, release all the worryness.... We shouted in class and scream... We all enjoy ..... I feel very happy and relax after going for zumba class all the time..:P Yeah i lost weight again........... :)....

Yday after zumba class, Wendy, Dorris and Me when for lunch and coffee, we che chat till 7pm.... I'm very happy to relax my mind... :P

Yeah in the future i got one assistant for my zumba class... Jonathan will be my assistant to help me in the class as well.. :P He's a good dancer as well.. All of us love to dance and one day we all will be instructor.... :P

So happppppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!


***** Im udpating my blog, 19/6, Friday, 1015AM
***** Love Paulin




Hmmm... Today is Wednesday already, oh gosss time fly's so quick.....
Hmmmm... I taught belly dance taught by elva but turn up to be Ezen, nvm i want to try his class.... :P After class Jax & Me are going to watch blood...........

Today my mood was ok too.. I dont want to think what have been passed already, im going to move ahead and on with or without anything or anybody? My life's still goes on no matter what? I need to work hard on my carreer as well............

Hmmmm just now before i walk out from my house my mother ask me whether and really im teaching part time in myoga or not? I said not yet, im still polishing up my carreer........................ I'll not give up..... I cannot wait to see what is going to happen in my future???????????????????? Hmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!


***** Im updating my blog, 17/6, Wed, 2PM
***** Love Paulin




Hmmm... Today i woke up i were thinking alot of thing's thats has passed for long already..... I feel so sad and wasted like that? All the time i have alot of thing's to thing all the time... I dont know why and what i think so much? My mind dont have peace of mind to have a rest... :(..............

I went for Samba & Rhumba, i love those classes alot.. I learned it before long long time ago.. So now i need to polish up my Latin.. :P I'm going to learn Salsa & Jive soon already... :P I cannot wait for the next intake..... :) Thats what i want to learn for so long already.. I have Latin Background just need to polish up and work hard for compettion's... :P

After class Wendy, Dorris, Yunis, Shu Wen, Jax & Me when for long long lunch at Canton I in the Garden's Lg..... We took pic's but all of them is in my phone.. We talk and talk talk talk, said alot of old thing's happening...... :P

Then i saw my friend, Babe@Yen, long time we havent meet for so long, we are dancer's and instructor as well 2... :P We can show our move's and go for competition togther... Yeah we rock's babe's..... :P

Im so glad, i'm so happy toooooo, i meet this darling's of mine, they are so nice, great,friendly, carrying and same gang... :P So nice... :P I miss the old's want's as well 2... :P


***** Im updating my blog, Tuesday, 16/6, Tue, 820PM
**** Love Paulin




Hmmmmmmmmm.................... In my dream's that i want to go travelling before i grow old, before i have my own family, before i strat with my busy job.. I want to travel to my dream land of, Europe, American countrie's, Bali, Thailand, Hong Kong, China and etc more.. :P That i wish to travel... :P

*** Yday Uncle Micheal Chong, Ask us to write in our dairy for November 15 go to China,Changmai... :P So my mum said to me that if im not working then we can go and im working then i cannot go to china.. :P Hmmm..... :P I also want to go there for long time.. :P Then all the ladie's can go for shopping and eating eating eating and take nice pic's of china.. :P Long time i didt been to china already.. :P I want to travel the whole world before i grow old.. :P wakakakka.... :P

Yeah Yeah... :P My dream is to open my own dancing studio, and become professional Dancer as well.... :P I got alot of dream's that i want to be and go as well.. :P

*** I dont care what ppl talk about me.. :P I'll go with my own way... :P life's still goes on dear... :P

Lord, hear my prayer's and need's lord...:)

Love Paulin




Oh No... My cousin sister in s'pore said that s'pore having mega sale's.. Oh no.. How i wish i can go there to buy all the branded stuff's... :P Hai yah... :P

I want to go to s'pore for shopping and visited all my cousin's over there as well.. Hai yah............................ S'pore is a nice and safe place to live as well.. :P Hai yah....


***** MOnday, 15/6, 1010AM
***** Love Paulin




Hahahahah.. I have finally wash my hubby@Car.....
Oh goss.. When i came back from Cameron Highland's the wheather up there is fanstasic and cool.. Come back to KL, so freaking hot.. I cannot stand the wheather in KL... So freaking hot hot hot..................... :) Melt already like a chocalate has been cooked.... :P Wakakakkakakakakakkak.............

I'm in the club waiting for sweetheart, Dear Dear, and my other's friend's as well.. :P I saw mummy at the club, she has change not like before already... :(... I dont care about anyone already, i just misses all my old friend's that i know now and last time as well.. :P My love's are always there for all of my love's one's all the time.. Im still around i'll take good care till i gone from this earth.. :P

Oh lord... :P Take good care of all of us lord...

***** Im updating my blog at the club, 15/6, Monday, 425PM
***** Love Paulin




Hai Im so glad that im home sweet home......... :P
Today is sunday already wow, time has pass very very quick already. Time fly's like wind, going to be middle of June already coming to the end of June already.. Time fly so fast.....

Im so glad that im back to praise god with my full heart to him..God has touch me with his word's and song's of praise's.. But i was touch by god moved me and pastor preach today as well... Oh lord, u are wonderful to me and all my love's one's as well, as your children's... :P Thanks lord... :P Do continue to be with us all the time lord, now and always lord... Be with all of us lord... :P May your angle's be with us all the time lord.. :P Hear our prayer's and need's lord.. Amen... :P

Today im very tired and lazy didt go to club to dance cha cha... :P Hehehehhe.... I havent have a good rest enough yet... :P So that i dance with my full engry heheheh.... :P Yeah.. For the whole week im back to my program's... :P I hope everyone misses me.. :P Heheheheh... :P


***** Im updating my blog at home , Sunday, 14/6, 720PM
***** Love's Paulin










Thats us with White & Black outfit we all wear the same colour's and same mind thinking as well.. :P We are the lovely gang's...... Thats me, sweetheart, Dear Dear & Darling at the sushi zen at Lg in the Garden's... We all had a great time together eating and talking together...



Thats us again, Dear Dear, Sweetheart, darling & Me.......

Thats is Dear Dear, Sweetheart, Me@Babe & Darling.. Possing with different direction's only lor.. The photogrpaher is Ben Ben... The silly guy...

Thats us wating for food...

Thats Dear, Me & Sweetheart on the way up to myoga...

Thats my Crazy Dear Dear eating ice-cream, she love's ice cream so much.., Thats why is soooooooooooooooooooooooooo fat................ wakakakakak.....

Thats all about us.. :P loving each other...



Love Paulin




Oh Yes, I'm back from the Church Family Camp, its was fun and i taught it will be bored as well.. :P But i had a great time, with my love's one's around me as well.. :P Cameron Highland's is a very nice nice place to relax and cooling as well.. :P At night its very very cold and windy as well. But not as cool like oversea like Winter Season lah.. :P Its normal everyone was good and great with it.. :P

God has touche's my life since that 1st day of camp, god has touch's me thru his word's when i was practicing my worship song's... :P God came and talk to me, he will always there for you, whenever I need him.. In Bible told, yes Come to me , whenever you need him@Lord. God has touche's me in many many ways of my life.. :P Thanks lord... U are the great great father in heaven that i never had... :P Thanks lord, lord continue to be with me and guide me whenever i need you and in trouble as well.. Oh My yday i taught Line Dance Sway, its was a mess of me.. :P I also dont know whether im Professional to teach them or not.. I feel so pai sei ler.. :P I hope they all enjoyed in my dance session class...

This morning my kai ma@Aunty Ros, prayed with me, she pray to god that what i need him that i told you lord... :P Thanks Lord.. I have told you what i need from you to guide me and lead me lord.. :P IN the right Path way lord.. I need your help lord.. PLs answer me and make it come true lord... :P I know you will do it.. I do have good trust and faith in your lord... :P Thanks lord...



We came back to KL about 6PM so late....


**** Im updating my blog 13/6/09, Saturday, 9Pm
**** Love Paulin




Hmmmm....What is in my mind... :P I have no idea, sometime's i have a lot of thing's to think and worried about? I also dont know why? My mind, soul and peace is not in peace of mind... :P Hmmm!!! I also dont know why? I dont get enough rest and sleep all the time.. :P My mind wont fully off..... :P When i dont get enough sleep, my mind and dream... Then i will have a bad dream or scary dream... :P

I dont know last night i had a bad dream.. :P And scary dream... :P I never had dream bad thing's like that before.. :P Im so scared and woke up after that 2....

Im so sad as well.. B'coz tomorow i'll be going for church camp to Cameron Highlands... :P So i wont be going to myoga for 3 days.. :(... Im going to miss my friend's and classe's as well.. :P But i also dont know what im going to teach them in the camp as well.. :P I suddenly dont have mood and run out of idea already...

God pls help me... :P



***** Im updating my blog at home, 10/6, Wed, 1010AM
***** Luvs Paulin




Hmmm what is in my mind now.. ? I also dont really know what is happening to me.. :P
I got alot of worrie's and taught's that i want to do and havent been done.. :P
I'm getting worried and emo of it.. :P Sometime's you all dont see it on my face, b'coz i never show it on my face whenever im out from house.. B'coz i dont want anyone to be worried for me.. :P ONLY 1 PERSON KNEW WHAT IS GOING ON IS GOD WHO KNOW'S I'M HAVING TROUBLE AND WORRIE'S.....................!!!!!

Sometime's nobody can able to heal's my feeling's and what its been hurt before.. :P
Sometime's ppl think's im small kid or childish... U all dont understand and dont know what i been thru before in my kiddo time.. :P Its never ever going to be heal of my brokeness that its already been broke before.. :P Who can replace my heart of sad feeling's that still hurts me till now.. :(.... I'm very very sad and always worried thats what is going to happen around me... :(... Im so sad, disappointed & etc.. Execuse me im also human being ok.. :P PLz respect me as well.. :P

Since i was born, some ppl doesnt like me, always bad stepping on me till now.. :P Its never ever going to be heal by the sadness and hearts breaks of my poor heart... :P I have waste alot's of tear's of mine till now as well.. Who can understand me and able to cure its.. Its only my father in heaven who able to provide me what i need's and help from you god.. :P I never ever ask for more....

Sometime's i dream of bad thing's happen and wired as well.. Hardly i can get a nice nice postive dream's that i waited for for for soooooo sooooo long.. :P Sometime's i dont understand what im doing and thinking of... :P God god..... :P
Sometime's i feel like going somewhere that no body could ever find me.. :P Whenever i think of those my tears will automatic will come out flow from my eyes.... :).. Sometime's u think's its a bit childish or what? I dont care already.. :P .......


nevermind, one day whoever will understand me and hear what i had bad experience's of my life.. :P One day i'll not be in this world with you all already... :P One day i'll be in heaven with my father.. :P Then my peace, soul & mind will be in fully in peace of mind.. :P Amen.. :P



****** Love Paulin




I was so happy that yday i treat my girl friend's at the sushi zen downstairs in the garden's LG... Its was great time talking and spending time together... Hai yah so sad i got the pic's inside my phone, but i lost my phone wire already, so i cannot upload the great memories in my blog... :(.... I think my sweetheart@Joslyn will upload inside her blog soon..................... !!!

Sweetheart & Babe@Me, went for zumba so hard to burn fat then we finally ate ice cream as well.. Dear Dear@Sin Ee,Sweetheart@Jos & Babe@Me ate ice-cream and we took pic's as well...

They all are younger then me, but we are very very close to each other's, we all are just 1 yrs or 2 yrs younger then me... :P I do apprieate them and i love them alot.. :P

No worrie's im the eldest of the group, i'll take good care of them, if im still around.. :P Wakakakakak............. I love u all darling's..... Yeah Darling, N Me planned to watch movie next friday 19th June, yeah... We all are so happy.. :P

I hope it will be a great time.. Do cherrish every moment friendship we had.. :P Love yah.... Muakssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!



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OH No.. I found out something already... I know how to upload pic's into my blog already starting from today... I'll put my pic's and story's about us too...


Today i went for my Fav's class, its was hard steps but i can make it thru the whole 2 hrs in the class... But i having a slightly backache... But i can make it.. Its my tranning for my future as well... :P Ryu was paying so much attention on me and other's as well.... I love LAtin alot.. After lunch Wendy & Me, went to Yuzu to have a lunch, we both talk alot me and other's topic's as well.. :P Its was fun talking to her and relize some of my sad storie's to her... :P I was very happy to see some of my good friend's in the club... :P

** My good friend Jax's sister going to give birth already, congrats..... Jax couldnt make it for the latin class today, b'coz she has to take and look after of Jia Nee.. She was scared as well... Yes i know her is Jia Nee's feeling's..... :P Poor girl...... :P


Time fly's so quick alreay... Going to be middle of the month of June already......

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Hai yah... Wow today is already Monday already, times fly's so very very quick oh goss... Time fly's so freaking quick......

I dont know why my emo today feel so happy like flying in the sky with happyness... I saw my sweetheart, darling and babe@me... :P They are like my angel's as best friend's around me all the time no matter where im? :)

The gang and me are going to celebrate Cay Mee's Bday on the 20th June on saturday... So execited too... This month i got so many friend's bday ohhhhhhhhhhhh..... Hai yo... Brankrupt already liao.. But lucky i still have money.....

I think it will be great time spending good quality and quantity as well with my good friend's around me... :P

Oh no.. Im so sad that this thursday till saturday im not in KL... I cannot go for y fav's classes in the club... I'm going to miss the classe's......... Hnmmmmmmm....



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Hahahaha... Today is Sunday already, Holy Day in church.....
I didt go for my fav class today cha cha with Ryu... :P I was feeling tired and having a slighly stomach ache as well........ :P I didt have a good break since i join dancing few 10 Yrs already... :P I joined so many many many different's teacher's and different's kind of dance's as well. I love dancing so much... :P

I'll not give up in whatever i do and wanting to do in my future as well.. :P
hai yah.. Life is hard to get and earn... :P Must work hard and play lessssss!!! Heheheh....... :P

Today after church we all celebrated my Leng Ma@Evelyn Ho, Belated bday........ Wakakakak.. Eat till 330PM.. so long right.. :P Sunday we always have long long lunch then i got to eat half way and leave early for my cha cha class... :P Today i missed my cha cha class... :P

Tomorow, i got to work hard and dance hard, since im going off on thursday, Friday and saturday, so im going to missed 8 classes... So sad... :P Hai yooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!! I need break as well.. :P



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Hmmmm.... I was emo yday but suddenly i was freaking fine after that.... I went for classe's back to back in a row... :P I went for a class that i been missed out for long already... I went for intro aerobics with malcom, he told me, i was so clever and improve in his class... B'coz i long time didt go for he class... :P I found i have fall in love with his class that my good friend woon ask me to go with her... :P I didt make the wrong choice.. I taught i wanted to walk out from the class already, but i didt do it, i can do it.. :P Yeah.. I was half dead already, while dancing Zumba with deno.. But i can make it as well.. Yeah i can do it.. :P Hai yah. Next week 11-13 JUne i will not be around and cannot make it for my 8 classe's that im going to miss, all of that is my fav's classes that i want to go.. :P Hai yah :(... Nvm lah.. What to do already, paid for already.. :P

Im going to miss my class's, my good friend's, my fav instructor's 2.... :(.... So sad........................ !!!!! Then after yday class, we went for gathering with my mum friend's as well.. :( eat eat eat, till i went to washroom after that, having bad stomach ache till now as well.. :P wakakakakka.... :P I was a bit high yday 2... :P Hehehehhe....



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NO worries about it, i love to planned for my love's one's & good friend's bday celebration's... U all know that i'm a good planner for all my love's one's and good friend'ask me to do.. No worries, if im fine with it, I'll plan for the celebration gathering together... :P I love it.. :P

I'm that kind of person, who alaways love helping, loving, carrying, worried's, kind, friendly and etc u mention...... :) LOL.......... Hmmm.. I hope u all do know me well enough...






****** Love Paulin




Hai yah... OH Goss.. Whats happening to me? I feel so lonely sometime's.... :P
I cannot stand already, i need to get and do what i wanted to do and get... :P Oh my.. Im Lossing my patient on it already..... Whats happening to me? Oh No.. $$$$$ Is running away already, so freaking quick.. Oh NO......................

I so headache already, planning for friend's bday celebration with my friend's...... Hmmmm i dont know whether other's ppl or some one will plan for my bday or not? I also dont know lah.. Nevermind, if no one want to plan for me, then i'll plan my self lor.. LOL... what to do lor?

Life is being boring already... SO peace with it already.................... I dont know how long i can stand it with this kind of attitutide? :(......

Sometime's i think's of negative and postivite as well 2... I feel sometime ppl are using me.. My Own taught's only... NOT U ALL ok.. :P IS ME....

Do tell me if anything you all not happy with it.. Come talk to me straight away ok...... Be peace with you all... :)..... God bless you all babe's................. :)



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Hmmm... Wow... Today is weekend already, so quick time fly's... :P
I dont know why sometime's i feel so down with emo.. SOmetimes i feel so freaking happy.. :) Last time, i remember when i finish whatever i was doing to come to the club... Now i feel everyone is so wired and change alot from last time i knew them all.. :P Some are still the same old friend's and attitude... :) Wakakakakakak... :P
Im so glad that i knew alot of new's friend's , like same age, different's age's as well. I dont mind mixing around with different's age's.. Im not a small baby or gal ok.. :P Im mature already..... Im small size and cute.. But inside my heart and mind, im not inmature ok.. :P Im mature already... :P

Hello...... :)...... I'm so blessed and happy that God has brought me into this world with different's age's of friend's and love's one's around me all the time.. :P IM so glad that i have a wonderful father in heaven... :P

IM STILL THE SAME OLD PAULINE, WILL NEVER CHANGE AT ALL... EXECUSE ME... :p

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Hai yah... I dont know why this few's days i was so happy and emo suddenly as well.. Hai yah.. :p I dont know what happen to me? I also dont know why i got so many many many thing's in my mind and worried about as well.. :P

Sometime's i feel life is bored lah.. :P I dont know why & what i got so many many thing's in my mind about.. This few day's & week's already i didt get a good sleep and not enough rest... :(......... Hmmmmm!!!!

I went shopping today, i wanted to get alot alot of new's cloth's b'coz its having sales sales sales sales... :P...... hehehehhehehhehehehhehehhehehehehehehhehehe!!!!!


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Hai yah.... Wow today is weekend already... Has been long time didt go party... But im very tired..... I love to dance and do what im doing and around me.. :P

I went for 2 zumba's classes with Elva darling.. Its was fun fun fun and great workout.. I relize that i lost some weight already.. I can see the improvement and the good work of me.. :P Yeah......

Today im planning to go for Line Dance & Belly.... :P .............. Hmmmm.....



Continue later....

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Oh goss.. Wow the time has pass so quick... OH no....
Im so happy today is thursday already, b'coz i love thursday alot, got my fav's class and teacher teaching as well.. :P
Today i'll be going for 2 zumba classes yeah... Yeah after my afternoon zumba then i will do my new hairstyle today... :P I cannot wait to get a new hairstyle.... :P I love to be look good... :P

*** My mum told everyone that i'm teaching part time in the club... :P Yes i wanted to teach, but i need long time to prepare already, because zumba is easy to teach but need plently of time's to prepared and practice for 9 song's ler.... :P Need to remember, not everyone can remember alot of different's steps with different song's as well.. :P YEs im ready to teach, but i need time to prepared and practice's as well. Thats why i need to attend many many classe's before i can peform and prepare my classe's to be smooth..................... Yeah... I dont want everyone to look down on me, if im not well prepare... Thats me, i love and like to be prepare and practice.. I dont like doing last minit thing's...

*** Oh no, somore i dont know whether and what to teach thoese ppl ler.. Need to prepared and practice the Line Dance.. Hai yah... :P I also dont like teaching Line Dance want.

I'm Latino Background, so i love to teach and dance Latin alot more then dancing Line Dance and belly too.... :P But i'll not give up on those? I need to work hard on it...


*** Im so sad, i still havent hear and see any good new's from god's help as well.. :P Hai yah.. :P Why GOd? Why you're not helping me at all.. :(.... Lord i needs you to help me and make sure its all come true lord... :P Pls lord... I never like baggggggiiiiinnnnnggg on other's lord.. :P Pls lord..... Help me.. :P

*** today is Hananah Montana movie comes out today in the cinema.. I want to watch it as well..

I'm planning to watch Hananah Montana, 17 Again(Zac Afron), NATM PArt 2, And etc.....

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Oh i just finish doing my new look..So now im in the club in myoga... Waiting for my friend's and waiting for my class to start..... Im very happy and glad that i finally done my hair already...... Sorry i cannot upload my pic's in my blog... I'll put inside my facebook account.... .

SO now im waiting for zumba class to start.. Still freaking early lor..............

Hahahahah......... I also dont know what to say already... :)........


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Oh goss.. Wow the time has pass so quick... OH no....
Im so happy today is thursday already, b'coz i love thursday alot, got my fav's class and teacher teaching as well.. :P
Today i'll be going for 2 zumba classes yeah... Yeah after my afternoon zumba then i will do my new hairstyle today... :P I cannot wait to get a new hairstyle.... :P I love to be look good... :P

*** My mum told everyone that i'm teaching part time in the club... :P Yes i wanted to teach, but i need long time to prepare already, because zumba is easy to teach but need plently of time's to prepared and practice for 9 song's ler.... :P Need to remember, not everyone can remember alot of different's steps with different song's as well.. :P YEs im ready to teach, but i need time to prepared and practice's as well. Thats why i need to attend many many classe's before i can peform and prepare my classe's to be smooth..................... Yeah... I dont want everyone to look down on me, if im not well prepare... Thats me, i love and like to be prepare and practice.. I dont like doing last minit thing's...

*** Oh no, somore i dont know whether and what to teach thoese ppl ler.. Need to prepared and practice the Line Dance.. Hai yah... :P I also dont like teaching Line Dance want.

I'm Latino Background, so i love to teach and dance Latin alot more then dancing Line Dance and belly too.... :P But i'll not give up on those? I need to work hard on it...


*** Im so sad, i still havent hear and see any good new's from god's help as well.. :P Hai yah.. :P Why GOd? Why you're not helping me at all.. :(.... Lord i needs you to help me and make sure its all come true lord... :P Pls lord... I never like baggggggiiiiinnnnnggg on other's lord.. :P Pls lord..... Help me.. :P

*** today is Hananah Montana movie comes out today in the cinema.. I want to watch it as well..

I'm planning to watch Hananah Montana, 17 Again(Zac Afron), NATM PArt 2, And etc.....

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*** Love Paulin




Hmmm.. I got alot of personnal and sad stories to say in here.. But i dont want to write in here, b'coz i dont want ppl to know, how i feel... Only 1 person know's is god.... :P








Paulin




Oh My God....... I Never experience's so sad moment, disappointment & etc that now only i felt.... I dont know, why? I felt sometimes like im not doing it good since i was born, or maybe god created me like that... :P But anyway i wont make the same mistake again and again.. :P I will try to improve my life to be success in whatever i do and making it come true with full of happyness and etc... :P

I feel so hopeless, i need to count on someone, but i dont like being that suitation? I dont like to depand on my mother or dad, b'coz im not grown up to be one like that.. I already have practice to be independent on my own feets and life... :P I dont like to depend on anyone, i would like to earn it and get what i want to be success in my future......... :) thats what i want for... :P

Now, i need GOd to helps me, with what i need him to provide me and etc... Oh God, pls help me with my prayer's and need's that i told you for so long time ago.. :P

U know what i want for my future and now right........ Sometimes i dont like xxxxxxxxxxx..... I dont want to mention it.. :P

NOW ALL I WANT FROM YOU IS, HELP ME TO GET ME A NEW CARREER, HELP ME WITH MY FUTURE CARREER TO BECOME A PROFESSIONAL DANCER & INSTRUCTOR, I WANT TO TAKE UP AND POLISH UP MY LATINO, SALSA AND ETC........... OH GOD, U KNOW WHAT I WANT RIGHT.... :p PLS GOD....

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