24/8/2010, Tuesday, 445PM

Im updating at the gardens club while im waiting for my class to start again..Im very disappointed, unhappy, i need to find another job as well, i waste my nearly half a year for something, its doesnt help me at all, but im trying my best to build up my career and business too..

I will not say too much already, i need to focus on my career part two again i need to work something out again, i need to build up my income and business again.. What i should be doing now?

Any recommendation or suggestion............................



Author,
Pauline




23/8/2010, Monday, 1PM

*** Its monday Blue again, what is in my mind, heart and everything thing one together....

1) I want to achieve's my goal's, dream's, achievement's that i want to be and do for long long time already, i really cannot stand it anymore already......

2) I want to get another new career Plan B, but i dont know what is my qualication is good for the jobs out there?

Im tired, sick of doing, thinking, i dont know why its not working on it, its take time, but i will not give up, i will do till my level best in my career, to see myself succeeding as well, success as well... I dont wan to give up with my Insurance Career to be an agent, i will work it out someday n soon too...I will one day be million air soon.... I just need to work work work hard in deedd......

3) Im very disappointed, unhappy, heart broken, why they are devil's, bitches and others are around here and there, i cannot stand, why those bitche's are so jeious about? Mind their own f***king business lah, why have to be so busy body........

Stop bullshiting to other's, what you have done to other's, blaming on other people how the bullied you or what? Stop bullshit ting around, if you dont ammited now, nvm one day GOD will punish you, what you have told or hurt before.........

I didt do anything bad to you also, just mind your own F***king business thats all......


I want to do for my good, with my success of career and life.................................................................................



Author,
Pauline




21/8/2010, Saturday, 1115AM

*** Yesterday i receive a Boquet of Roses Flower's, its so amazing beautiful, this is my first flower i received for this year, its has made me so happy, someone in my life, who bought for me...

My Prince Charming has win my 1st heart already, had made me so happy, so amazing pretty and my heart was so glad... I dont know what else to say already, i just feel so happy, blessed, did i find the right Mr Prince Charming in my life.. :)!

I feel so happy when i wake up this morning, so now im at the gym already, waiting to go to class, and huggies all my BFF, later.. :)!

Im going to burn fats again, i wan to be more fix fix fix... I want to lose another 1 1/2KG....


What will be the next step of life that going to made me happy again. :)





Author
Pauline




*** My True colour is always pure blue, cool.. Bcoz im happy what im doing, serving for my father in heaven, love all my love's one's, my BFF's, and more families as well too...

But sometimes its very hurt inside deep my heart, bcoz some people understand how i really feel, always supporting me, tru deep inside my heart, but some people always back step behind me, who always hurt me, so painful...

I cannot be forgiven or forget those people had hurt me so painful has a hole inside my heart already, turn's black.... :( !

I really had work so hard, wont try not to give up, think bad thing's, and negatives thinking, but sometime i cannot do that, bcoz its very painful inside me, dont understand how hard for me to survive and leave all alone here, even some one who love's me, also not supporting me at all, always gives me pressure, till i cannnot sleep, :(, its really hurts then anything else... :(.

How can i be happy again, is get a wonderful husband who can support me, love me, care for me, and be there for me.

God answer my prayer's, and need's, that i need so badly, but he didt even answer me?

Do my hard work, earn more money for everything towards my career able to stand with my own two feets..... :)
that i will be happy like a bird flying all over...............................





I need space from everything please understand me, its very hard for me to sustain my life.........................







16/8/2010

Pauline ^^ !




**** Im very unhappy, disappointed, stressful, heartbroken, and feel like going somewhere far away from everyone.. :) I feel very down down... :(!.

Im very disappointed in my life and career, i feel like lossing my confidence, faith, trust, hope and everything in life.. I dont know what shall i do already, i feel like giving up everything in life and career too, because i dont know what shall i do already, bcoz im down... :(!...

Sometimes the person who loves me, always looking down, thinking that and this, bcoz she is still the person i love the most.. :)! How can i prove myself and everyone that im not failure in life... :), God pls help me with my career and life, whatever im going tru i feel very painful deep inside my heart... :(! Oh lord......

Please make me happy Father in heaven.......... Please make my dream's, wishes, tardget's, goal's, & Achievement's come true Father in heaven.. :)!

Hear my prayer's and need's lord... Thanks... :)!

Pauline




"HELLO", everyone has been a long long time didt update my blog already.. Being so busy with my career & life as well.. :)!

Life is hard full of stress, hardwork as well and more ...
I feel very stressful with my career, but im trying my best to hit my goal's, achievement's as well and more too... Keeping up going with my full hardwork too.. :)! Im very stress with my career, bcoz im not even half way there yet, but i will not give up, need to hit my goal's too.. :)!

Pauline will not give up, will stand with my own two feet now and future as well too...... more to come.....................



Nothing much to say already........


21/June/2010, Monday, 2.20PM
Pauline!




Im very happy, that i went to watch the musical "West Side Story", the boardway musical on Sunday 16/May, it was a great awesome, brillant, good good show.. I didt make the wrong choice, i went with my best friend Azusa San, we both love the musical so much, always talk about it, saying when are we going to watch the next musical, what will be the Next musical Be?????


"Tonight tonight, there's only you tonight, what you are, what you do, what you says, tonight"! Im pretty, I'm so channing, im pretty pretty pretty... "!

Great great great musical, wonderful awesome, musical..!! I love it so much, if the ticket's are not so expensive, i will go for the second time, to watch it.. :) Awesome musical, loving it so much, make me so impress to make my passion come true..


Awesome..!!!!